Heavy Concentration

It has been a long time.

Blogging just does not seem to fit in with the lifestyle of the travelling facilitator. A two day course repeated every 3 days over the last two weeks, each in a different town around the country, has drained me of any ability to communicate. The fact that I designed the course, has added extra pressure as it required optimisation post each iteration.

So far four courses down and one to go! They have gone well, and the ratings have been good. And I now have a weekend and the following week to find myself again, before launching into course number five.

Training management using a free flow discussion format requires nine hours of focussed concentration each day. On my feet and thinking, guiding conversations, eliciting insights, and playing the clown. By the end of the day, I am poor conversation, completely tapped out.

I have of course enjoyed much of the debate and conversation. I also cannot believe how much the course has improved as I have improved in my delivery, timing, and program changes. And I am getting paid for this piece of work, which makes a wonderful change for much of my effort this year.

There is light in the tunnel, but where the end may be is anyone’s guess! I like it that way…

Sleepy

Tired, so tired...


I am not sure that one is allowed to be tired after 3 weeks of holiday. I should be refreshed and rejuvenated.

Then again last night was a little trying. We spent the evening with friends at a braai. Their house is high on a mountain and overlooks most of Cape Town. The view is awesome. Isabella found it all far too exciting and decided that sleeping was not for her.

Dinner was rather late in the evening, and so a very tired family excused themselves early from the fun and headed home. I mistakenly thought that sleep would revitalise me. Unfortunately between the house alarm going off twice, throwing the cats out of the house twice, Isabella waking once, and me waking a couple more times, sleep was not what one would define as sleep.

Could tonight be the answer?

So tired!

Tired

I was exhausted last night.

Yesterday was a frenetic rush of activity, despite all of my cut backs. Then revelations flooded in as to how much work I need to do in the near future. All of my various projects seem to be crying for time and attention at the same time. And then the potential projects, which have been hiding in the wings, briefly showed me a glimpse of their size. I think I was exhausted just thinking about it all.

A good nights sleep was just the thing to get me raring to go this morning. Isabella only woke once last night and I did not even hear her. This morning I am ready again to take on the world.

It did cross my mind that there must be so many people out there with problems that are thoroughly overwhelming. Where a good nights sleep is far from sufficient to erase the troubles of life, and really just awakens the hardships one is trying to escape. Those with cancer, husbands whose wives have tried to committ suicide, children on drugs, parents on drugs, people without work, and the list goes on...

My thoughts and prayers are with all of those people. May today also bring some light!

New look

After three years of the same old tired looking front end, I have decided to do something about it!

My blog is in the process of getting a facelift. Many decisions on colours and photographs to be made. So far, the result is far from where I want it to be. In time, I will get it much better, but you will just have to wait and see!