New look

After three years of the same old tired looking front end, I have decided to do something about it!

My blog is in the process of getting a facelift. Many decisions on colours and photographs to be made. So far, the result is far from where I want it to be. In time, I will get it much better, but you will just have to wait and see!

Time for Nothing

Life is busy. I keep harping on this as I am unsure if I should change it or learn to accept it.

A friend of mine thinks that we suffer from time management issues. In other words we do not know how to manage our time very well. I think it is in fact just the opposite. We have learnt to manage our time far too well. Every moment is crammed full of things to do and places and people to see. It sure is fun, but I am left feeling very tired at the end of the day and sure that I still have not done the really important stuff that I needed to do.

I had a moment last night in front of my PC, whilst my wife’s book club met downstairs with big glasses of wine in hand. There were heaps of things for me to do but instead I did nothing for a couple of minutes. Minutes of careless abandon where I sat and felt the world go past me for a change. It was wonderful and refreshing as I thought about all of the things I should have been doing and decided that doing the nothing I was doing was far better than delivering any of those other things.

Then I got busy doing things again and I missed my moments of nothingness. I think I need to unlearn time management techniques and instead relearn how to dawdle and daydream!

I was just thinking about life. Not in a deep way but rather with a sense of wonder. I am alive. That is pretty sweet!! I can think and move and do all sorts of things. I can make decisions and see them play out, I can fly by the seat of my pants and hope for the best and I can choose to coast along.

Either way, I think I am in charge and of course I am not.

For the most part, I am the hero in my life. What I think, say and feel are the most important things to me. Like a great Hollywood actor, the star in this show is all me. The rest of you should all just fit in and make me look good!

I am trying to change but it is a mindset that has been built up and reinforced my whole life long. Look after numero uno! Don’t accept second best! You deserve better!

Through my job, I have been exposed to just how poor the poor are. Much has been written about how gap between the rich and the poor continues to widen and how nothing is being done to change this. Luckily in my show I have a house and sleep in a bed in my own room. I am certainly one of the rich ones. I also have a fridge and cupboards full of food. In comparison to the majority, I am super rich.

Are the poor really my problem? My bed is soft and my food tasty, why should I even care? Do we continue on down this road until a new age Robin Hood comes along and destroys society as we know it in order to find some sort of better equilibrium? Perhaps that is far-fetched but history has taught that all of the mighty empires of the past have crumbled and died. What makes ours immune?

The world trade talks have just broken down. The wealthy countries cannot agree to drop farmer’s subsidies. I mean why should the USA allow their poor poor farmers to suffer the injustice of cheaper imports from some poverty stricken peasants. Why should they suffer to relieve somebody else’s suffering?

I have no right to judge as I too continue to do what it takes to protect my families best interests. Unfortunately If you and I cannot change and put the interests of those around us first, we will get to watch as our earthly riches fade, crack, rust and crumble!

But if we can change, surely there is hope for all of us?